Right, how I said it tho? This year totally the rollercoaster ride meeenn. All the goods things happened this year, and all the bad things too. But if I have to make some resume here probably it won't be enough? But I'll try LOL
So first things first would like to say sorry because it's been so long I didn't write here. I have plan to write here, at my D-day, like I usually do for years but I can't write it in the mean time. Guess what? I just act like busiest girl at the moment. How silly.
Oh why I didn't write here at those time tho? I think I'm not that busy either. Perhaps because I just feel overwhelmed about everything that happened.
So yeah I do some short of part time jobs, full working hours actually, but because I still didn't graduate yet so I just called it as part time. But, working there is truly blessing, I mean I'm not just work and got payed, I have new experiences and met all beautiful person there. They're so young yet so thoughtful and wise oh my god I learn so much about life from them.
At Uni I feel suffocate when meeting new people, but when working there I really feel a lot of joy and happiness, yes I feel tired and bored sometimes, but the feeling ain't long lasting. I wonder why too. But it's really a good things that happened in my life this years, one of them.
And then, yeah I finally graduated lmao such a long ride, I should doing that as soon as possible but if I did that probably I won't get the new insight and experience at such place isn't it? So it's still my win win tho, don't try to argue with me.
The important part is I brave enough to confess at my long-term-chrus. I did it! Yeah! And it make our relationship more clear, I want to call it as my closure too, hope my relationship with him last longer, as friend, especially.
And I still try to move on here oh please God could you give me the one like right now? Lmao but if not it's ok, i'm just going to be chill here.
It's good tho, to be open up, even at some point I still hide everything from him but it's a good thing to open up what we feel.
"If we love someone, let them know"
I found those words when I already told him what I felt and feel so relief that I did that. It's not just for me, it's for us too.
So yeahhh maybe those all big even that happened?? There's a lot of things happened actually, this year truly those rollercoaster ride meeenn, good things happened and bad-fucked-up things happened too. Breakdown three times and have a big debt (yaallah kapan lunasnya). Still got a lot of pressure at the last month of this years, I really need to get a job and joint the bandwagon, and payed my debt.
And I hope my depression not take a comeback stage here, so yeah let's go 2020!!
Thank you folks for joining my bandwagon!
